" Let's Fail"

Failure to me means only room for improvement, but it has not always meant this to me. I have had a few failures in life that in the end all I wanted to do was give up. For example one I feel a quite a few people could relate to. I am currently in my second year about to be finished but in the process of failing Gen Chem 1 for the second time. School has always come so easy to me, it did not take a lot of effort to pull A's each and every time. My freshman year taking chemistry, I felt like no matter how much I studied and no matter how long I stood up and redid every problem I kept failing each and every exam. I felt defeated especially when I would hear others say "it was so easy". At the end of that year I eventually had to drop it and take it again this year. I thought for sure since I was taking it a second time, this would be a lot easier but I found myself still struggling. I started to go to every office hour, bought study edge and started studying with friends. Although I will say I have improved it has not been enough to pass this class. This really did take a toll on me to know that I am trying so hard and still able to succeed with it. Due to this I have cried, rethought my major, rethought my placement here at UF  and felt horrible about myself. What I realized this year and especially in class is nothing worth doing comes easy. I learned I can fail 100 times but as long as I keep going I will be able to succeed, the key is to keep trying. I know it is not ideal to continue to keep taking classes again but I know what I want most in life and I will not cannot give up. This class has shown me that the greatest entrepreneurs have failed time after time again. I also decided and realized myself a little more throughout the course. I realized that the same way I reward myself for doing good such as going to ale house or going shopping, I can also use it as more motive and a keep trying reward. I beat myself up a lot when I fail and I need to realize it is ok and I have this class to thank for that. From my failure I not only learned to keep trying and find new ways to study and apply myself but I also learned it is ok as long as the next time I come back twice as strong. So yes, failure sucks, its scary, embarrassing and takes a toll on my emotions but I have overcome worse and will not give up. I will try to take all my failures as a lesson and fuel to drive the next attempt.